Persecution Complex

"I couldn't believe I was in this situation," she testified. "I felt like I had no control over anything."

Wall told jurors that Warren Jeffs performed the marriage ceremony, with Rulon Jeffs and Fred Jessop present.

"I really didn't comprehend what he was saying" during the ceremony, Wall said. "I sat there with my head hanging." She said she remained silent when Warren Jeffs asked her to confirm her vow.

She said, "Warren looked at me and repeated" the vow while directing Wall's mother to stand next to her. "My mother just squoze my hand hard, and I said, 'I do.'"

Warren, she testified, then directed the couple to kiss. "I gave him a peck on the lips and dropped his hand," she said. Warren then put their hands back together and said, "Go forth and replenish the Earth and raise good priesthood children."

At the time of her marriage, Wall had never dated a man, let alone kissed one. She said she knew nothing about sex and did not know how babies were conceived. But she knew that the command "go forth and replenish the Earth" meant she was to be the mother of Steed's children.

Immediately after the ceremony, Wall said, she fled across a courtyard and locked herself in a bathroom, where she cried. She said in court, "I could not believe I just got married."

Wall testified that no sexual activity occurred on the wedding night. "I was fully clothed under my nightgown," she said. Nor did any sexual relations occur on the four-day honeymoon to Phoenix, New Mexico, and Colorado.

Wall said she told Steed she "hated" him and did not want to be with him. But that did not stop Steed from attempting to initiate sex, Wall testified. Steed, Wall said, was "touching me on my private parts" and that she was "terrified and horrified."

Upon their return to Hildale a few days after the honeymoon, Wall told the jury, Steed exposed his genitals to her while they were sitting in a park one evening.

Wall said she ran away from Steed and retreated to her mother's room inside Fred Jessop's sprawling house — home to dozens of his wives and scores of children. Wall said she went back to Steed's room, which was next to her mother's room, early the next morning.

Upon returning to her husband's room, Wall said, Steed once again made sexual advances. Wall said Steed told her this was what he was supposed to do. "This is what married people do," she quoted him as saying. "Don't you want to have a baby?"

"Not with you," Wall said she told Steed.

Wall said she left the bedroom and returned to her mother's room, where she stayed for the next several nights. When she finally returned to Steed's bedroom, he again made unwanted sexual advances.

"It's time for you to be a wife," Wall said Steed told her. "Please don't do this," Wall said she told Steed as he undressed her.

"He just ignored me," she said.

Wall said she protested his actions, telling him, "I don't know what you're doing. I'm really uncomfortable with this, so please, stop."

But, Wall testified, Steed persisted.

"I was sobbing. And my whole entire body was just shaking because I was so, so scared. I didn't say anything. He just laid me on the bed and had sex."

After he was done, Wall said, Steed "rolled over and went to sleep." She said she was overwhelmed with feelings that she had done something evil.

"I didn't understand why he had done what he had just done," she told the jury. She testified that she locked herself in the bathroom and swallowed two bottles of over-the-counter painkillers, intending to commit suicide.

"The only thing I wanted to do was just to die," she testified. Instead, she threw up the medicine and was faced with being the wife of a man she despised.

Within days after her initial sexual experience, she and Steed went to an FLDS enclave in British Columbia. Wall said she told a sister living there that she "hated" Steed and "didn't want to be close to him."

The unhappy couple returned to Hildale in June 2001, and Wall arranged a private meeting with Warren Jeffs. She testified that she told Jeffs that Steed was "touching me and doing things to me that I was just not fully comfortable [with]."

She said she told Jeffs that she did not love Steed and did not see herself having a family with him. "I begged him to please give me a release" from the marriage, she testified.

Instead, Wall said, Jeffs admonished her, telling her that "I needed to repent. I was not living up to my vows. I was not being obedient."

She said Jeffs ordered her to "go home and give your self to Allen, who is your priesthood head, mind, body, and soul, and obey him without question."

Wall testified that she did not use sexually explicit language in her discussions with Jeffs because such terms are never used in the FLDS culture. After her meeting with Jeffs, Wall testified that she again told Steed, "I [don't] see a future for us."